Five Years Down and Still Searching…
This tour has been a roller-coaster for me. We have been doing a lot of self-evaluating individually and collectively as a band. The record has been out for a while, we have been on the road for four months or so, and it is really just now setting in that we have been out here for a while. It is crazy to think that this band is now three years old. I say it a lot, but I really feel old. This July marks my fifth year as a touring musician, and compared to many that isn’t much, but I have experienced more these five years than most people do in ten. It’s crazy to watch myself grow up and see myself change emotionally and physically. I never thought I would say or appreciate half the shit I do now days. I have been taking a hard look at myself and at this band during this tour, and I am learning so much just by taking a step back and re-evaluating what I am doing with my life. I love these guys and I am so proud of everything we have done together. Many people say I complain a lot, or I don’t smile enough, and this may be true, but I appreciate all the amazing people and experiences in my life.
Sometimes it is good to take a step back, sit yourself down, and have a check up. I don’t know what I will be doing in five years or who I will be, but I do know that I love my family, girlfriend, and friends more than anything. I am proud of who I am and what I do however, I am still searching. I’m not sure what I am looking for, but it is out there. I have an amazing woman who makes me happier than I have ever been. I have great band-mates and managers who help me be a better person. I have a great family and friends who always support me. I seem to be quite lucky, but I am still trying to find myself. I don’t know what that means, and I may never know. If I have learned one thing these past five years, it is to never settle. Never be content. Always shoot to be better. Happy five years, me! Here’s to another five…
(Also, the new Imogen Heap record is amazing. Check out “Wait It Out”)
